i_amthecosmos: (Tommy locket)
Hi. I don't spend much time here, and that's purely fear of any change on my part. I'd rather stay in an abusive relationship with Live Journal it seems.

I'm thinking of crossing over my fansforfans lj comm over here. Is this a good idea? I think maybe one or two people from my reading list are on it.

I don't have a lot to say right now. I need to start writing more.
i_amthecosmos: (Adam joy)
Happy Tresspassing Day, my fellow Glamberts. I will be impatiently waiting for my copy to show up.

I bought three copies-the one I pre-ordered in January, the UK edition that I was gifted the money for, and one for Youth First Texas. (YFT's amazon gift page is addictive. I want to buy them everything!)

I need to write a ficlet or something to celebrate. I have a chapter and a new story in the works but they're gonna take a while. I just want to write a little to celebrate.
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Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] shutyourface at Livejournal, come on.
Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] foxxcub at Livejournal, come on.
Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] harriet_vane at Livejournal, come on.
Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] poisonivory at Livejournal, come on.
I never use Scrapbook, but I think people who pay for a service should, you know, know when that service gets severely diminished. Via [livejournal.com profile] caiusmajor:

Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] zeitgeistic at Livejournal, come on.
Alright, I am not drunk enough to deal with this, so I'm just going to put out this PSA:

Livejournal Scrapbook is going away. Your 10GB of Paid Member space is now 2GB. If you care, there is an explanation in Russian on the Russian news page. There's also a user-submitted translation.

+ You will no longer have access to your Scrapbook once this goes live.
+ Your images will redirect, but the URL will be different.
+ Unable to tell what will happen to any photos you have that put you over the 2GB limit.
+ Back up your Scrapbook just in case.
+ If you want your photos transferred over now instead of waiting, let them know here.

It's Over.

Feb. 14th, 2012 11:52 am
i_amthecosmos: (Needy sorrow)
Buster the dog was put down at appoximately 11:00 am today.

She was a sweet baby girl right up until she went under sedation. Thank you all for your help and thoughs for us.
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The dog went back to the vet today to get her gum growth removed. We were right to put this above getting surgery for her leg now. They checked out her lungs because she's been having trouble breathing when she's asleep.

She has a growth on her lungs. They can't really do anything about it.

Fuck. Just...fuck. My dog might have cancer, but I'm not sure. At any rate, I think we're just going to take care of her at home and leg her leg heal as much as possible while...yeah.

Thanks to everyone who gave us some money through the PayPal button. It's really helped us with all these vet bills even though we haven't spent it on what we said we would. It's still all going toward her medical care. Thank you.

Edit: I got her back from the vet and the growth is worse than I had hoped. It's big and pressing on her heart and diaphram. Her lungs have a lot of fluid. We can't do anything but give her antibiotics and keep her comfortable.

I just...I don't know what to do. I'm devastated.
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I took the dog to the surgery center today, after a merry run-around trying to find it.

She hasn't had the surgery. Because it's going to be $2,500 at minimum. That's the estimate.

Also, she has a highly elevated white blood count. She's got a growth on her gum, which she's had before and it was biopsied and found to be benign. But the surgeon is worried.

So, maybe she also has cancer. We don't know.

Also, I am instructed to buy a crate-she is not supposed to walk until the surgery and then not for six weeks *after*. Oh my god. Remember, this is a dog that catches critters and jumps the fence reguarlly. She will hate this.

PayPal button is still open. But I just don't even know when the surgery will be. The money that has come in has reimbursed the existing vet bills, and I thank everyone for that.



Jan. 30th, 2012 02:10 pm
i_amthecosmos: (Default)
The PayPal account is working now and the money came through. I hope everyone can still cover it, since it's so close to the end of payday for most people.

THANK YOU ALL. Thank you. It was over $450.00. That will help a great deal. I'm so happy right now. I'm also scared to death of PayPal, so I hope it's not lying to me.

Thank you so much.
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So, my dog Buster is eleven years old. She loves to hunt and chase things-squirrels, birds, doesn't matter. Nobody ever told her she was getting older and she still likes to romp around like a three year old dog.

This past weekend, she was running and snapped a ligament in her back right leg. She will need surgery for it next week. I don't know how much we're going to need, but the visit just to get her x-rayed was $285. And for this, she has to see a specialist.

So...here's my paypal button for Buster's surgery. If you can donate anything I'd really love you forever. I will probably put this on my fic lj too. She needs this, since the only other thing to do would be keep her on pain meds, and that's no solution. Thank you.

Edit: It will probably take a couple of days to verify the donations, because PayPal is being skittish about our bank for some reason. We think it's going to be fine, but if you want to wait a couple of days, that's cool.
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This is shaping up to be an "everything looks better in the morning" kind of day. (Something I didn't even know about until a couple of months ago, since I never got up in the morning.) I'm feeling calmer and more productive after several days of not doing much at all.

I lost my temper yesterday at Thanksigiving. Evan tells me not to worry about it, but he forgives me a lot easier than I forgive myself. I feel pretty bad about losing it over Yatzee of all things. Sometimes I just want to be left alone, and my visiting cousin is super-enthusiastic about everything. She also can't take "not right now" as an answer. It's my fault, but it made her feel bad.

But today's better.
i_amthecosmos: (Adam/Tommy hug)
Today is day before Thanksgiving at work. We are closed Thanksgiving proper, so we'll be nuts. I do not have the energy for this. I just got up from a nap (I'm still waking up with the alarm, but if I need more sleep, I can always go back to bed later. I have to make allowances for an extreme circumstance like this). I'm just really fucking tired.

Mom informed me that I am expected for "real" Thanksgiving even though we've already had it. It's for my cousin. Her family situation is bad enough that she's adopted my parents as subsitute grandparents, and is coming over to visit. That's great, but I have no energy for this. I hate to say it, but I don't think I can deal with my mom. I'm too tired to.

Maybe I need ten hours sleep and then it'll be okay.
i_amthecosmos: (Gerard/Ray happy)
Many people have heard versions of this rant in aim or other such places, but I've never fully written it down. Here it goes, the Normal Guy Theory.

This theory states that many bands will have a member who reads as closer to the broad societal definition of "normal" than the rest of the group. Sometimes the Normal Guy is simply normal compared to the rest of the other freaks, in other cases he's so ordinary you can't believe he's in the band. This obviously applies more to bands with a strong musical and/or visual identity (punk, metal, emo). The Normal Guy is more common than you think. Here's ways to find him.

(1) In many cases, the Normal Guy is a replacement for a departing original member. Bob Bryar from My Chemical Romance was their Normal Guy, and he was a sound mixer who had gone on the road with them before-as a sound guy. When he joined the band, he continued to be uncomfortable with the spotlight. Now that he and the band have parted ways, Normal Guy status is now represented by Ray Toro, who previously was a bit too much of a nerdy guitar enthusiast to really have the spot. Other replacements that were the Normal Guy: Jon from Panic! At the Disco, Gilby Clarke in Guns N' Roses.

(2) If the normal guy is an original member, he is often the best friend of the lead singer or main songwriter, the band's lead guy/girl. Izzy Stradlin was Axl's best friend and was the Normal Guy (in a broad sense), until sobriety and wanting to make his own music led to his leaving. Sami Yaffa from Hanoi Rocks was the closest friend Mike Monroe had in the first version of the band, and he had the fewest dramatics of any of the group.

(3) Normal Guys are often drummers, bassists, or rhythm guitarists. Jackie Fox was the Runaway's Normal Girl: bassist and now entertainment lawyer.

(4) Some bands cannot tolerate a Normal Guy and will fly apart if they get one. Motley Crue didn't have anyone within spitting distance of normal until they replaced Vince Neil with John Corabi. That lasted exactly one album. The Sex Pistols threw Glen Matlock out as soon as they possibly could, Johnny Rotten being unable to stand him. The Ramones kept CJ in the band for years, but only because they had the slowest slide to destruction of any major band, ever. A band with a faster metabolism might've spit him out sooner.

Now that we've established who they are, what makes the Normal Guy normal? Usually it's some combination of practicality, common sense, groundedness, and actually being in it for the music. (Normal Guys can be the best or second-best musicians in their band). A goofy sense of innocence can play into this as well. Gilby Clarke on Behind the Music, talking about the GNR debacle in Montreal that led to the stadium being set on fire: "That was my first riot!" If the Normal Guy isn't one of the main songwriters, his contributions might be ignored by the others. This can eventually lead to a split.

The damnest bands can be hiding a Normal Guy: Jeff Magnum was the bass player of the Dead Boys, and in "Please Kill Me", he repeats "All I wanted to do was play the bass really loud". His fellow Dead Boys almost drove him crazy. Megadeth's Dave Ellefson got addicted to herion and still managed to hang on to some of his sweet Midwest-boy charm.

The Normal Guy brings needed balance to an act: Ziggy Stardust needed Mick Ronson to give them a solid rock guitar foundation. The Who needed John Entwhistle to stand there and look mildly embarrassed when the rest of them went nuts. Their stablity can help hold the center of the group together.
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I just heard my neighbors yelling across the street. "ROLL TIDE!" "WAR EAGLE!" "ROLL TIDE!"

It's...that day. It's Iron Bowl Day. Alabama vs. Auburn.

And I'm going to work.

...We ain't gonna do SHIT for business today. And everyone we will see will be either drunk or in the middle of a football-induced pyschotic episode.

Why me?
i_amthecosmos: (Allison purple and red)
Ow! My back got a not-nice pull, but it's better now. I really have to go in to work because I'm working for someone else. A co-worker wanted to take her daughter trick or treating. I'm gonna be sitting down all day today. I really thought I'd have to call in, but the ice pack did the trick.

...This is a bad day. I'm glad I'm not celebrating Halloween again this year. I just kinda don't care. (Last year's had a minor medical proceedure too, so I just can't be bothered.)

Happy Halloween, at any rate.
i_amthecosmos: (Default)
Today, my new spinal block met the real world.

I worked a six hour shift, then came home and did some light housework. (I had done more light housework before leaving for work as well.)

Verdict: no pain that I would consider worth noticing until after ten pm. And after some time with a pillow under my back and a little Icy Hot, it settled down.

Standing and lifting still irritate it, but now it's not every time but after a full day that this happens. So I am seeing some improvement, but no bouncing around in the daisies yet.
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Back pain or nightmares. Sometimes both.
i_amthecosmos: (beckoning cats)
[Error: unknown template qotd] Cold noodles in peanut sauce. It takes no time to make and it's a good quick lunch. I made some today, actually.
i_amthecosmos: (Adam and Riff)
I've been trying to keep schedules and stuff like that and I keep letting them slide, but I think I'm on to something now. Here you go, my technique to keep from sitting here all day and not showering or eating until 5pm:

The Points System

It goes like this-everything I do that I find productive in some way (getting up on time, cleaning, going to work), is noted and is given a point from 1-3. One is something a person without health constraints could do without thinking about it-getting dressed, meds, breakfast, coffee and letting the dog in all count as 1 (that's the morning routine). The shower is a one, because I'll put it off. Laundry and cooking are 1's mostly because I enjoy cooking and don't mind laundry.

2's tend to be things that involve leaving the house, or take more energy. Also things that scare me. So going to the pharmacy is a 2. If I'm cooking and my back starts to hurt from standing over the stove, that's a 2.

3's: these are things I want to avoid or have a lot of steps. A lot of moderate housework is a 3, because my body's not in good shape and it hurts. Yoga, which I love, is a 3 because it involves driving in rush hour traffic to the uni, and then the hour long class itself. It's *always* worth it though. Anything involving in getting my CMCS is a 3.

Then every night, I count up the points-the goal is 20 or over. A whole week of 20's gets me a prize-a new lipstick, a used book, bath salts.

This would seem silly if you didn't know how much i can get trapped inside my head. Inertia is kind of where I live most of the time. Also, the idea is to build up: do more and eventually 3's become 2's and 2's become 1's. And then I'll be moving forward on a lot of fronts.
i_amthecosmos: (Default)
Title: We Dance To the Sound of Sirens, Chapter Thirty-Six
Fandom: Adam Lambert
Pairing: Adam/Tommy
Rating: R
Author: [personal profile] i_amthecosmos
Word Count: 6,905
Warnings: Talk of past dub-con.
Disclaimer: I made this up and I do not know the real people portrayed in this fan fiction. I make no profit off this. Please do not Twitter it to any of the people represented as fictional in this work. Thanks.
Notes: I’m whumping Tommy again. I am so sorry. Thanks to everyone who reads this. I'll get the banner up later, I promise. I'll also start mirroring everything here once lj stops being a bitch.

Read more... )
i_amthecosmos: (Adam surprise)
Haven't gotten anyone on the phone today regarding my dad (I talked to him yesterday, so that's okay. Mainly I just wanted to know if the weather was okay there if I drive over). But my sister, who works at the hospital did call me.

She wanted to know if I had a Beatles 45 for a scavenger hunt she's taking part in.


*cracks up*

Why, yes I do! And if you are nice and call me back, I'll even let you borrow it!

My family, I'm telling you.
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Pick one of my fics, and I'll give you three details that didn't make it into the fic. Background canon, deleted scenes, or a look into the future. My choice, but if you have a specific question you can ask it in your request.

Fic is here


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