i_amthecosmos

Beat your ass and hide the Bible if God watching

Mon, 13 May 2024 02:41:53 GMT

Oh yeah, I'm in love with Kendrick's "Not Like Us". Wow.

So I've stayed away from here longer than I meant to. My depression was getting rough. Things have happened, not all of them good. I'm having sleep problems. But it's not as bad as it could be.

Evan just told me today that he's got training for a week, out of town. Not only did he forget to tell me, he forgot to get a hotel. I ask you. Oh well, not like it's Miami.

I need to get my car seen to, again. That's tomorrow. I'm going to rent a car. Here's hoping they have a sedan. I'm actually really annoyed that those are no longer much of a thing far as US autos are concerned. They're even retiring the Chevy Malibu.

Good news, I've seen my sister a few times. She just called me out of the blue one day to drive to her place (hour and a half away) and have lunch at her house. So I did. Then we went to a record store. I bought four of them.

I'm still writing fanfic, nothing stops that, even when my moods or pain is bad. So that's all right.

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Mon, 15 Jan 2024 19:41:26 GMT

Sorry. It's been kind of busy over here. I dropped my car off at the shop, but haven't gotten a rental yet. We might have trouble with that, since there's a big cold front coming in. It will still not be as bad as other parts of the country, but I'm worried the power might go out.

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Mon, 04 Sep 2023 07:06:51 GMT

I love it when I write something somewhat difficult/unhappy. Because basically all you can do is sit tight and wait for that story's people to show up. Well, been a few days, and I think the whump fans smelled the blood in the water. I'm very happy about this.

Bug has injured her leg. She's very athletic and she's about six years old now, so she tore some ligaments in her back leg. We're trying to keep her as still as possible, but it's not eacy.

I've been having back pain, so that's no fun.

And now it's two am. Ah well. Happy Labor Day to those that celebrate.

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Sat, 08 Apr 2023 16:29:27 GMT

So Susan had her cancer surgery, and she didn't get a room. They kept her for observation on a gurney and then sent her home after 24 hours. When she got home (50 miles away from the 1st hospital), she had a seizure, and had to go to her local hospital to get treated. Now she's back home again.

Ain't no beds. Ain't no beds.

I wanted to come over, but now isn't the time. So I'm just on amazon trying to find a nice gift basket.

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Fri, 07 Aug 2020 20:46:13 GMT

Got my pain block today, finally. They're backed up at the surgery clinic-I heard a nurse say that they were scheduled for 61 blocks today.

They had me get on my stomach, and I hate to admit it, but it hurt a lot and I screamed. Embarrassing. This was a full room too (see 61 blocks). But then they put me under, I woke up, I got snacks, and now I'm home. Evan got me a torta from the local Mexican place.

It will take a few days to a week to see if it takes, so wish me luck.

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Wed, 27 Nov 2019 04:42:06 GMT

I'm going to my sister's for Thanksgiving this year. She's hosting me, Evan, mom, and her husbands family.

Hoo boy.

I don't mind Michael's sisters and their families, but his parents? They give white trash a bad name. They're awful-dishonest, sleazy, racist, selfish, you name it. How do I know this? Because Michael tells us. He knows his family is shit. This is why I give Michael a pass on a lot of things-it could be so much worse.

However, I just have to eat my food and not engage the crazy. Hope I can do it.

Had a weird interaction with a technician sent to inspect our heating and cooling until. For one thing, he kept getting inside, the last guy didn't do that at all. Then he kept asking me questions-was I married, ect. I finally told him he was getting too personal. Then he left, only to come back and asked if he'd left his keys! I told him I didn't see them, and didn't open the door. I'm so glad to have dogs.

I need to call and complain on him. I was out doing pre-Thanksgiving shopping so I didn't today.

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Wed, 21 Nov 2018 21:38:25 GMT

Made the fourth batch of holiday cookies just now, and I don't even know who all I'm giving them too. So far I have chocolate with chopped Reese's mini cups, gingerbread (not really a cookie, but still yummy), the oatmeal/golden raisin/toffee bars mom likes, and the peanut butter/m&m/peanut butter m&nm cookies from today. Yay.

I'm thinking of making monster cookies, which are similar to the ones I made today, to use up the balance of m&m's.

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Aaaand I fucked up the medication again.

Wed, 25 Jul 2018 09:59:32 GMT

Hi, it's nearly 5am here. I took my morning meds at night, then tried to take some of my night meds on top of it. And then I called poison control, because I took my blood pressure medication twice, plus other stuff that makes you sleepy.

Poison Control Lady told me to drink lots of water and be careful getting up from a lying position, then called me an hour later to check how I was. I was doing okay.

But now I can't sleep.

I'm writing. That's good. I always have heightened emotions when this shit happens, so I'm channeling it.

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Mon, 04 Jun 2018 18:40:57 GMT

Been writing my goddamn ass off these past few days. I've been a part of the getyourwordsout community for-holy shit-about nine years. I didn't do so great last month-might be that surgery thing. I was about 7,000 words short. So I got a collection of quote h/c prompts that a friend gave me, and started to try to make it up before today.

I came really close, with over 5,000 words written in three days. Now I have a one-shot and a story in my small-town verse. I'm still at it. I've decided to see how far I can go on this prompt list, and I have to do it in order too.

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Ugh...

Fri, 01 Jun 2018 18:14:02 GMT

Mom fell last night and has a cracked rib. Considering she's 75, it's lucky that it wasn't worse. She also has a UTI, which probably weakened her and that could be why she fell. I know she'd been really tired, I should've guessed she might have some sort of infection. She just called to tell me. This means she probably isn't driving me to PT next week. Poor mom. I hope she rests up. It's very hard to get her to take it easy, but it seems like her body is overriding that.

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Thu, 21 Sep 2017 00:51:41 GMT

Had to go back to the guy who took out my back molar. I was having persistent pain and light bleeding. He filled the gap with some putty-like stuff and gave me another prescription for Lortabs.

My generic Lortabs with insurance were less than $3 for eight pills. No wonder we're having an opiate epidemic, that's cheaper than Mad Dog 20/20. Granted, Lortabs are not that strong compared to some.

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Thu, 17 Aug 2017 18:59:54 GMT

Yesterday my next-door neighbor stopped me before I drove off to tell me that she'd been robbed. She's had this big yellow moving truck in her backyard for ages. Yesterday, someone waited for her to leave the house and then they towed it. So that's not a spur of the moment crime, they had to drag it out of there.

Not only that, but she told me the truck was full of about $5000 worth of craft supplies. (I've been in her house, they're hoarders.) So she lost a truck that in theory could've provided income for her children (she and her husband are older and disabled), plus a lot of general stuff.

And now I'm worried about people staking out my house.

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Mammograms, sharks and T-shirts

Fri, 28 Apr 2017 01:54:46 GMT

Tuesday I went in for another mammogram, since my right boob has very dense breast tissue and they could not get a reading. this lead to a two-hour visit which ended with an ultrasound. Everything's okay, but they want to put me through this a few times, since it's so hard to read and will make home self-checks hard.

After that, I went to my favorite combo Asian grocery and restaurant. After a nice dinner, I went to the grocery part and took a look at the seafood. This place has live eels, live turtles, ect. But I was offended aand grossed out by two not-live, gutted sharks. They were about a foot or so, and gray with white underneath. Not sure what type, but I wasn't happy. I love sharks. I was thinking "For SHAME", but what can you do? I just wound up buying my barley tea and moving on.

Today and yesterday, I've been going to the Dollar Trees around town to get t-shirts. I've been going to NOW meetings, and we're doing the Clothesline Project, a protest/art installation about sexual assault. I was put in charge of buying the shirts and clothespins. And let me tell you, the Eastlake Dollar Tree is God's Own Dollar Store-I will be back.

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Tue, 04 Apr 2017 16:59:28 GMT

anybody still around? Let's get this going. I've already moved my zillah_slash fic lj here. And since basically lj was just me and the 5-10 people still there that talked to me, this isn't such a big loss.

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Trope_bingo card

Sat, 04 Jan 2014 06:17:27 GMT

reunion	au: royalty / aristocracy / feudal	poor communication skills	virginfic	sharing a bed
role reversal	friends to lovers / friends with benefits	trapped in a dream	road trip	kidfic
unrequited love / pining	mind games	FREE ★ SPACE	sex pollen	time travel
au: alternate gender norms	trust and vows	character in distress	chosen family	marriage
hurt / comfort	transformations	coming out (of the closet)	rivals to lovers	matchmaker

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The After-After Party

Sun, 07 Oct 2012 16:36:21 GMT

Fandom: Adam Lambert
Pairing: Adam/Tommy
Author: i_amthecosmos
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 3,167
Prompt: Ball/Dance/Prom, from cottoncandy_bingo
Summary: Adam can’t bring Tommy to the prom, but that doesn’t mean they can’t have a dance.
Disclaimer: None of this is real. This is a non-profit work of fan fiction. Please do not Tweet it to anyone who is portrayed in this story. Thank you.
Warnings: Underage sex (boys are seventeen)
Notes: This is a tag to We Dance to the Sound of Sirens. It takes place a few months later, on prom night.

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Cotton Candy Bingo Card

Mon, 06 Aug 2012 15:18:32 GMT

Good luck charm	Art	Shoulder rub	Honesty	Vacation
Malfunction	Knows me better than I know myself	Chocolate	Crying / Tears	Toothache
Animal	Feathers	WILD CARD	Fair / Amusement Park Ride	Astrology
Stuck together—literally	Secret romance novel / fanfic	Red carpet	Ball / Dance / Prom	Hogging the blankets
Miniatures	Needing / Wanting	Consummating the marriage / union	Kiss (not on lips / face)	Hiding an illness / injury

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Mon, 23 Jul 2012 17:35:55 GMT

Hi. I don't spend much time here, and that's purely fear of any change on my part. I'd rather stay in an abusive relationship with Live Journal it seems.

I'm thinking of crossing over my fansforfans lj comm over here. Is this a good idea? I think maybe one or two people from my reading list are on it.

I don't have a lot to say right now. I need to start writing more.

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We Dance To the Sound of Sirens, Chapter Thirty-Six

Thu, 06 Oct 2011 18:01:50 GMT

Title: We Dance To the Sound of Sirens, Chapter Thirty-Six
Fandom: Adam Lambert
Pairing: Adam/Tommy
Rating: R
Author: i_amthecosmos
Word Count: 6,905
Warnings: Talk of past dub-con.
Disclaimer: I made this up and I do not know the real people portrayed in this fan fiction. I make no profit off this. Please do not Twitter it to any of the people represented as fictional in this work. Thanks.
Notes: I’m whumping Tommy again. I am so sorry. Thanks to everyone who reads this. I'll get the banner up later, I promise. I'll also start mirroring everything here once lj stops being a bitch.

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Wed, 27 Jul 2011 18:46:03 GMT

Just commenting to say that this DW is hopefully going to be active. Also, if anyone can give me any name ideas for a locked original fic comm, I'd love them. Let me know!

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Hello!

Wed, 01 Sep 2010 17:29:48 GMT

This is i_amthecosmos, and this is my new dreamwidth account. I might be moving her permanantly, depending on lj. At any rate, I'm here now. A bit late to the party, but I feel like it had to happen.

Thanks Dreamwidth.

I'll have more posts later.

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