And it just gets worse.

[i_amthecosmos]

The dog went back to the vet today to get her gum growth removed. We were right to put this above getting surgery for her leg now. They checked out her lungs because she's been having trouble breathing when she's asleep.

She has a growth on her lungs. They can't really do anything about it.

Fuck. Just...fuck. My dog might have cancer, but I'm not sure. At any rate, I think we're just going to take care of her at home and leg her leg heal as much as possible while...yeah.

Thanks to everyone who gave us some money through the PayPal button. It's really helped us with all these vet bills even though we haven't spent it on what we said we would. It's still all going toward her medical care. Thank you.

Edit: I got her back from the vet and the growth is worse than I had hoped. It's big and pressing on her heart and diaphram. Her lungs have a lot of fluid. We can't do anything but give her antibiotics and keep her comfortable.

I just...I don't know what to do. I'm devastated.

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[adamgrrrl.livejournal.com]

as a pet owner/mommy, you always, ALWAYS have to face the fact that eventually your sweet lil bundle is going to break your heart, no matter if it's a medical issue or plain old age. i've had to gently put down 7 of my feline babies in the last 5 or 6 yrs, not to mention pets from when i worked in a preschool several yrs ago, too. i know EXACTLY how horrible it feels, the helpless devastation...
if you need to talk, dm me, i'll give you my cell, we can text.
luv.

[i-amthecosmos.livejournal.com]

We've had her eleven years. We don't have children, so she's our baby in a way.

Of course, she might not feel as good but she's acting as much like herself as possible-she doesn't know she has cancer after all. She was bouncing around, bad leg and all, when I was fixing her a fried egg just now.

[i-amthecosmos.livejournal.com]

She doesn't like her kibble and wants human food always. She'll eat bread crusts, pizza crusts, whatever. But she doesn't really like fruits or vegetables, being a dog and all.

Yeah, she's resting a lot, but she was anyway because of her age. She was clingy yesterday because she'd spent too much time at the scary vet's office.

I'm not working today, so I can fuss over her.

[adamgrrrl.livejournal.com]

a fried egg?? jeez. is she one a those animals who'll eat whatever's put in front of her? had a cat like that, i SWEAR she was a goat in a former life!! xD
as far as her general well-being, yeah, ya gotta envy them that. not understanding the fact of your mortality must be nice, it's quite the curse for us uprights...